'SEE YOU MORNING' 015 Really Lived 《晓欣卿》015真正活过

It was a new day again. Li Haojun lay on his side next to Qin Wenjing, stroking her cheek, her hair. The hazy morning light filtered through the curtains, passing through the gaps between the strands of hair, shining on her face.
又是新的一天，李皓珺侧身躺在覃文静身边，抚摸着她的脸颊，秀发，清晨的朦胧的亮光透过窗帘穿过发丝间的缝隙，照在她的脸庞。
"I had a dream last night," Li Haojun said softly,
"昨晚我做了一个梦，" 李皓珺轻声说，
"What, tell me," Qin Wenjing liked it when Li Haojun shared anything with her,
"什么，告诉我，" 覃文静喜欢李皓珺与她分享，任何事情，
"I dreamed of streets at nightfall, drizzling with light rain. The lights from the large glass shop windows along the street illuminated the sidewalk and the passersby. The rain wet the paving stones on the road, blurring the view. The dim yellow light of distant streetlamps only lit up a small surrounding area. There weren't many people on the street, sparse neon signs dotted the only bits of bustle." As he described it, Li Haojun added, "I don't even know if I was shopping or on my way home,"
"我梦见入夜的街道，下着小雨，街边商店大玻璃橱窗的灯光照亮人行甬道和来往的行人。雨水润湿了路面铺设的石块，也模糊了视野。远处的路灯昏黄的灯光，仅仅点亮周边不大的区域。街上的人不多，稀疏的霓虹灯招牌点缀着仅有的繁华。"描述着，李皓珺又补充，"我也不知道自己是在逛街，还是回家的路上，"
"Were you alone?" Qin Wenjing asked,
"你是一个人吗？" 覃文静问，
"It seems so. It seemed like a commercial street, but most of the buildings on both sides were single-story, with a few two or three-story ones. I don't even know if it's a place I've been to, I don't remember," Li Haojun said, chuckling and laughing at himself.
"好像是，那好像是一条商业街，但是街道两边的建筑多数是单层，有少数双层或三层的。我也不知道是不是我去过的地方，不记得了，"说着李皓珺呵呵笑着自嘲。
"Before, we rarely went shopping at night, mainly for safety reasons. You don't like taking risks, let alone taking me with you on adventures," Qin Wenjing said,
"以前，我们晚间逛街的次数也比较少，主要是安全原因。你不喜欢冒险，更不喜欢带着我冒险。" 覃文静说,
"What about you?" Li Haojun asked, "What's your risk preference?"
"那你呢？"李皓珺问，"你对风险的偏好如何？"
"I don't like it either, maybe I was influenced by you."
"我也不喜欢，也许是受你的影响吧。"
"Then do you get tired of such a routine, ordinary life every day?" Li Haojun added,
"那每天这样循规蹈矩平淡的生活，你觉得厌倦吗？" 李皓珺又补充问，
Qin Wenjing said with a smile, "It's fine, as long as I have you."
覃文静笑眯眯地说，"还好啊，有你就好。"
Li Haojun looked at her with a smile and didn't ask anymore. He was also thinking about the balance between risk and reward, quantity and quality in life's experiences. Of course, such an ordinary daily life isn't necessarily without quality, it's just missing some surprises and ups and downs, and the freshness of unknown expectations.
李皓珺微笑看着她，不再问了。他也在思考生命的体验中，风险与回报的平衡，数量与质量的平衡。当然每天这样的平淡内生活未必是没有质量，只是少了一些意外与波澜，和未知期待的新鲜感。
In his growth and life experiences, Li Haojun didn't take risks, he often even avoided them by estimating possible risks beforehand. Obviously, you can't just rely on luck to live to old age, but while such a life brings relatively stable expected returns, it also lacks other life experiences.
在成长和生活经历中，李皓珺不冒险，甚至经常是预估可能的风险就进行规避比，显然活到老不能只靠幸运，但是这样的生活在带来相对比较稳定预期的回报的同时，也少了些其他方面的人生体验。
Li Haojun had also been thinking before, was the time spent at the solar farm necessary, or was it worth it? He sacrificed the time to be with Qin Wenjing now in order to avoid the potential risk of possibly separating from her in an unknown future—was he being too neurotic? Admittedly, some people plan long-term and prepare for the future, while others live with an open heart and enjoy the present. Perhaps these are different lifestyles or life philosophies, but you can't deny the stronger or weaker causal relationships.
李皓珺之前也在想，在太阳能农场花费的时间是否必要，或者是否值得？他为了避免未知的未来未必与覃文静分开的潜在风险，而牺牲了现在与她共处的时间，是不是自己有点过于神经质了呢？诚然有的人计划长远，未雨绸缪，有的人心情坦荡过好当下，或许是个人不同的生活方式或者人生哲学，但是不能否认强或者弱的因果关系。
As usual, after most of the day, when Qin Wenjing finished her work and he saw she had time, Li Haojun asked, "I saw some netizens sharing that the riverside in Richland is very lively at night, shall I take you there?"
像往常一样，大半天，覃文静处理完工作的事情，看她有时间了，李皓珺问，"我看到有网友分享里奇兰那边河畔晚上很热闹，我带你去啊？"
When Qin Wenjing heard him say this, she widened her eyes, a bit surprised, because this didn't fit Li Haojun's style.
覃文静听他这么说，瞪大眼睛有点吃惊，因为这不符合李皓珺行事风格。
"Really?" Qin Wenjing asked again, then thought for a moment and said, "What should I wear?"
"真的吗？"覃文静又问，然后想了想又说，"我该穿什么衣服呢？"
"It might be a bit cool at night, wear a pair of thicker pants, a trench coat, that should be fine. Don't wear high heels, it's tiring to walk," Li Haojun suggested. After quite a while, Qin Wenjing came out from the back room changed, still in high heels. Women.
"晚上可能凉点，穿条厚点的长裤，风衣，应该可以了。别穿高跟鞋，走路累。" 李皓珺建议道。过了好一阵，覃文静从里屋换好了衣服出来了，依然是高跟鞋。女人啊。
Along the ordinary highway, heading south all the way, wetlands and grasslands along the way, with flocks of birds flying freely from time to time. This time Qin Wenjing sat in the passenger seat, with a loose braid hanging from her left shoulder to her chest, her bangs blown by the airflow from the open window, enjoying the natural scenery along the way. The afternoon backlight dyed the meadows golden. This was an unfamiliar road, never traveled before, no one knew what scenery lay beyond the next bend.
沿着普通公路，一路向南，沿途的湿地，草场，不时有成群的鸟儿自由飞舞。这次覃文静坐在副驾位置，松散地编了一条麻花辫在左肩垂到胸前，刘海被敞开的车窗气流吹散，欣赏着沿途的自然风景，午后的逆光把草甸染成金色。这是一条陌生的道路，从前没有走过，谁都不知道下一个弯角之后是什么样的风景。
Small towns, distant peaks, grasslands, forests on hillsides—such natural scenery kept rotating. Gradually the sky darkened, and the car lights on the highway and the lighting on both sides of the road became another kind of scenery along the way. Light and shadow flashed quickly through the windshield inside the car, making the journey feel like a dream.
小城镇，远处的山峰，草原，山坡的树林，就这样的自然风光不断轮换着，渐渐天色已经渐暗，高速公路上的车流灯光与公路两边的照明又成了另一番沿途景色，光与影透过风挡玻璃，在车内迅速闪过，让人感觉宛如梦境一样的旅行。
Li Haojun didn't talk much along the way, neither did Qin Wenjing. She didn't want to disturb his safe driving. The two of them just tacitly enjoyed the journey together.
一路上李皓珺的话不多，覃文静也是，她不想打扰他安全驾驶，两个人只是默契地共同享受这旅行的时光。
As night fell, the car had already driven into Richland. By the Columbia River, walking on the riverside promenade, the dark water reflected the colors of the night sky and the lights on shore, turning those solid colors into flowing light and shadow.
天色入夜，车已经驶进了里奇兰。在哥伦比亚河畔，走在河边的步行街上，幽暗的河水映衬着夜空与岸上灯火的色彩，把那凝固的颜色化作流淌的光影。
Li Haojun put his arm around Qin Wenjing's waist, strolling by the riverside, watching her bangs and cheeks illuminated by the roadside lights. Contrasting the cool-toned night sky and river above and below with the warm-toned riverside lights in between, it was as if a fairy tale was playing out—the princess and prince's love finally coming together.
李皓珺搂着覃文静的腰，散步在河畔，看她的刘海和脸颊被路边的灯光照亮，对比上下冷色调的夜空河水，与中间暖色调的河畔灯光里，仿佛上演着童话中，公主与王子的爱情最终走到一起。
Li Haojun looked at Qin Wenjing, she also looked at him with a smile. Li Haojun thought of his opening line,
李皓珺望着覃文静，她也笑眯眯地看着自己，李皓珺想到了自己的开场白，
"Do you miss Van Gogh?"
"你想念梵高了吗？"
Qin Wenjing was startled at first, then said excitedly, "Oh right, that painting of his, the one by the river, with the starry sky," as she said this, Qin Wenjing grabbed his arm with both hands and shook it while saying, "That painting, are we in the painting?"
覃文静开始一愣，然后兴奋地说，"哎对呀，他那幅画，就是河边，星空那个，"说着覃文静双手拉着他的胳膊边摇边说，"就是那幅画，我们是在画里吗？"
"Yes, but we don't have to be as sad as he was," Li Haojun said with a smile.
"是啊，但是我们不用像他那样忧伤。" 李皓珺笑着说。
Walking further ahead, the lights gradually brightened, the road also opened up. It was a small square, quite bustling. There were nearby residents strolling, musical instrument performances, and most importantly, various food stalls providing energy for the people active here.
再往前走，灯光逐渐明亮，路面也开阔了，是一个小广场，比较繁华。有附近居民散步的，有乐器表演的，最主要的还是各种美食的经营摊位，为这里活动的人们提供能量补给。
"We haven't had dinner yet, shall we eat here?" Li Haojun asked for her opinion,
"我们还没吃晚饭，在这里吃点好吗？"李皓珺征求她的意见，
"Sure, I'll listen to you," Qin Wenjing looked very happy. She was always like this, not picky at all about Li Haojun. I don't know if it's because she loves this person so she's not picky, or because she's not picky so she can love a person.
"好啊，听你的，" 覃文静看起来很开心的样子，她总是这样，对李皓珺一点也不挑剔。不知道是因为爱这个人所以不挑剔，还是因为不挑剔所以她能够去爱一个人。
Heading to where the most people were, there was a row of food stalls. The first one was grilled seafood—you can't fill up on that, so let's start with appetizers first. One for each of them, they held them in their hands and sat on a bench at the edge of the square to savor slowly. There was plenty of time.
往人最多的那边，就是一排美食摊位，头一家是烧烤海鲜，吃饱不能靠它，还是先来开胃菜吧，两人一人一份，端在手里来到广场边缘的长椅上坐下慢慢品尝，时间多的很。
"How is it?" Li Haojun asked. Actually he didn't really care about the answer to this question, asking was just for the atmosphere. He had always been cautious about outside food, so he deliberately chose something more familiar. To not spoil the mood, he didn't say anything else.
"觉得怎么样？"李皓珺问，其实他也不太在意这个问题的答案，提问只是氛围需要。他对外面的食物一直保持警惕，所以特意挑了比较熟的。为了不搅扰了兴致，他也没说别的什么。
"Pretty good, delicious." Qin Wenjing didn't think much. Whether it was which road to take or what food to choose, she just enjoyed the present food and time with Li Haojun. Or maybe it was trust—following her beloved, she entrusted everything to him.
"挺好的，味道鲜美。" 覃文静没有想很多，不管是走哪条路还是选择食物，只是一起跟李皓珺享受当下的美食与时光。亦或许是信任吧，跟着自己的心上人，就把一切都交付给了他。
Next was grilled steak, the two of them only ordered one share, and returned to the bench, sharing it face to face. There was also a musician playing on the square, improvisational, classical guitar, unknown piece, the melody was gentle and plain, the plucking sound was clear.
接下来是烤牛排，两个人只要了一份，又回到长椅上，面对面地一起分享。广场上还有乐手演奏，即兴的，古典吉他，不知曲名，曲调舒缓平淡，拨弦声清澈。
Because they were sharing a steak, the two of them were face to face at all times, looking at each other, tearing, chewing, eyes colliding and communicating, smiles appearing and flowing. The faint light illuminated one side of Qin Wenjing's cheek, the quiet night set off Li Haojun's face on the other side. In the gentle embrace of the evening breeze, it seemed only their two-person world remained.
因为共享一块牛排，两人无时无刻不是面对面，互相看着对方，撕咬，咀嚼，眼神的碰撞与交流，微笑的呈现与流转，淡淡的灯光照亮覃文静一侧的脸颊，清幽的夜色映衬李皓珺一面的面容。在晚风轻柔的簇拥里，似乎只剩下二人的世界。
Was this a program arranged by heaven? After finishing the steak, the two decided to have some starchy food, so one hot dog each, freshly grilled meat filling, with onions and butter. The two sat shoulder to shoulder and started eating. And over there came a Bayan accordion player, starting right away with Bach's Toccata and Fugue in D minor. The accordion's tone was like the evening breeze tearing through the riverside night, setting off the classical melody from centuries ago, stirring the hearts of people today. Li Haojun picked up the hot dog with one hand, put his arm around Qin Wenjing's waist. The two ate and listened, sometimes looking at each other and smiling. At this moment, everything humans need seemed to be completely satisfied. This moment was paradise.
这是上天安排的节目吗？牛排吃完了，二人决定再来点淀粉类食物，于是一人一个热狗，现烤的肉馅，配上洋葱和黄油，二人肩并肩坐在一起开吃。而那边又来了一位巴扬手风琴手，一上来就是巴赫d小调托卡塔与赋格，手风琴的音色，宛如撕破河畔夜色的晚风，衬托着世纪前的古典旋律，跌宕着现今人们的心灵。李皓珺单手拿起热狗，搂着覃文静的腰，二人边吃，边聆听，时而对视微笑，此刻人类所需要的一切似乎都完全得到了满足，此刻如是天堂。
After filling their stomachs, Li Haojun pulled Qin Wenjing up and walked around the edge of this small square. Away from the noise of the square center, enjoying their two-person world, settling for the sparse lights on the opposite bank, the shimmering river surface and tranquility. The night grew deeper, still didn't want to go home, the evening breeze was a bit cooler, but it couldn't hide the passion in their hearts. He tied Qin Wenjing's trench coat belt tighter, held her waist tighter, continuing this sweet moment.
填饱了肚子，李皓珺拉起覃文静，绕着这个小广场的边缘散散步。远离广场中心的嘈杂，享受二人世界，偏安于对岸的灯光稀疏，河面的波光与宁静。夜更深了，还不想回家，晚风也又凉几分，但是难掩心中的热情，帮覃文静系紧风衣的腰带，搂紧她的腰，继续这甜蜜时刻。
Over at the square center, at some point another violinist had arrived. Together with the accordion and guitar, the collision of these three instruments was that Piazzolla's Libertango. The atmosphere at the square center had reached a climax, with the music, people cheered and danced. Qin Wenjing here was also infected by this atmosphere, pulling Li Haojun with one hand, gently twisting her body to the rhythm of the music,
广场中心那边，不知道什么时候又来了一位小提琴手，加上手风琴，吉他，这三样乐器一起的碰撞就是那首皮亚佐拉的自由探戈。广场中心的气氛已经达到了高潮，伴着音乐，人们欢呼与舞蹈。这边覃文静也被这样的气氛所感染，单手拉着李皓珺，轻轻扭动着身体踩着音乐的步伐，
Seeing Li Haojun still so steady, she couldn't help but ask, "Do you remember if you can dance? Tango."
看李皓珺还是那样稳重，她忍不住问，"你还记得你是不是会跳舞吗？探戈。"
"I don't remember, did I before?" Li Haojun felt a bit ashamed, unable to fully enjoy this with her in this situation.
"不记得了，我之前会吗？" 李皓珺觉得有些惭愧，此情此景无法陪她尽兴。
Qin Wenjing didn't ask for more, just held Li Haojun's hand, dancing slowly, sometimes drawing close, sometimes pulling away, sometimes spinning by herself, sometimes spinning around Li Haojun.
覃文静也不要求更多，只是拉着李皓珺的手，慢慢地舞蹈，时而拉近，时而疏远，时而自己旋转，时而围着李皓珺旋转。
Over at the square center, after one piece ended, people weren't satisfied yet. Next came that "Por Una Cabeza." The melodious and gentle violin stirred people's heartstrings,
广场中心那边，一曲作罢，人们都没有尽兴，接下来就是那首一步之遥了。悠扬婉转的小提琴，撩动着人们的心弦，
Following Qin Wenjing's figure and steps, Li Haojun also moved to the rhythm of the music. Although he had forgotten the past in his mind, his actions just accompanied her present,
随着覃文静的身姿与步伐，李皓珺也随着音乐的节奏，动了起来，尽管他脑海里已经忘了过去，但是他的行动，只是配合她的现在，
"Can I learn from you now? I might make mistakes," Li Haojun said softly while following Qin Wenjing's movements,
"我现在跟你学可以吗？可能会出错，" 李皓珺一边跟着覃文静移动，一边轻声说，
"There are no mistakes in tango, if you make a mistake, please continue,"
"探戈里面没有错误，如果你错了，请继续，"
Whether it's dance or behavioral orientation in life, the tacit coordinated action between partners always gives the two people in love a stronger bond. Holding Qin Wenjing's waist, holding her hand, stepping in the same steps to move and spin together with her, the surrounding people and things faded away. Only each other was the center. Who would care which step was wrong or who saw it? Li Haojun only cared about accompanying the person he cared about, making her happy.
无论是舞蹈，还是生活中的行为取向，在伴侣之间的默契一致行动，总是给相恋的两个人更强的联结。搂着覃文静的腰，拉着她的手，踩着同样的步伐与她共同移动与旋转，淡化了周边的人与物，只有彼此是自己的中心，谁还会在乎哪一步走错了或者被谁看见了，李皓珺在乎的只是陪伴他在乎的人，让她幸福。
In the dance, Qin Wenjing was the active one, she was the one revolving around Li Haojun as the center. Actually not just in dance, in life she was also attached to that same person. Despite wearing high heels, she still quickly stepped to the rhythm of the music, interspersed with fancy calf movements, body twists, constantly showing her deep attachment to Li Haojun.
舞蹈中覃文静是主动的，她是围绕李皓珺为中心的那个人，其实不单是舞蹈，生活中她也是在依恋着同样那个人。尽管穿着高跟鞋，她依然快速踩着音乐的节奏，穿插着小腿的花式，身子的扭动，无时无刻不体现着她对李皓珺的深情依恋。
And Li Haojun's relative stability also happened to reflect his mature, steady, reliable characteristics in the relationship. Whether Qin Wenjing was far away or close, he was always there, could be her haven. In the dance, he also in a trustworthy way, at the needed moments, powerfully held Qin Wenjing's waist and held her hand.
而李皓珺的相对稳定，也恰好体现了他在两性关系中成熟稳重，可靠的特性，不管覃文静是远离还是接近，他总是在那里，可以作为她的归宿。舞蹈中，他同样以可以信赖的方式，在需要的时刻，有力地搂住覃文静的腰，拉住她的手。
In the climax of the music, the melodious violin, like crying and pleading, seemed to be telling Qin Wenjing's inner confession. She leaned forward in a lunge in front of Li Haojun, looking up at him with deep affection.
音乐的高潮中，婉转如泣如诉的小提琴，宛如诉说着覃文静的内心表白，她弓步依附在李皓珺身前，仰头深情相望。
Li Haojun understood her feelings, stepping with firm steps, his powerful arm pulling her to follow him. That seemed like a firm promise, a promise that runs through life, never leaving or abandoning through any life storms, even a declaration of love that transcends the carbon-based life cycle, sworn to the eternal universe.
李皓珺明白她的心意，自己踩着坚定的步伐，有力的臂膀拉着她跟随自己，那仿佛是一个坚定的承诺，贯穿生命的，无论什么样的人生风雨都不离不弃的承诺，甚至是一个超越碳基生命周期，向永恒的宇宙宣誓的，一个爱的宣言。
The music ended, but the people didn't disperse. Li Haojun looked at her face in front of him, her slightly hurried breathing, and felt infinite tenderness for her in his heart.
曲终，人未散，李皓珺看着面前她的的脸庞，她略显急促的喘息，内心感到对她的无比爱怜。
Gently pulling up Qin Wenjing, the two looked into each other's eyes. Li Haojun was still silent. His love was only shown through actions, never spoken.
轻轻拉起覃文静，四目相视，李皓珺依旧沉默，他的爱只做，从来不说。
Waiting for Qin Wenjing to calm her breath, she could no longer hold back, "I love you," it blurted out, and Li Haojun immediately hugged her tightly into his arms……
等覃文静平静了气息，她再也按捺不住，"我爱你，"脱口而出，李皓珺随即把她紧紧搂入怀中……
Standing there, oblivious to everything, after who knows how long, with the flashing red and blue police lights, a police drone flew over the square, successively broadcasting in English, Chinese, and Spanish, requiring the square personnel to evacuate, because a large crowd of protesters was approaching, and there were riot and destructive acts among the protesters.
矗立中，旁若无物，不知过了多久，随着红蓝警灯的闪烁，一架警用无人机飞临广场，陆续使用英语，汉语，西班牙语播报，要求广场人员撤离，因为有大量抗议人群正在接近，并且抗议人群中存在骚乱破坏行为。
In the embrace, unwilling to end this moment, waiting for the drone to circle the square once and return overhead, Li Haojun finally let go of his arms, looked at the drone, and pulled Qin Wenjing to prepare to leave.
相拥中，不忍结束这一刻，等无人机在广场转了一周又回到头顶，李皓珺才放开双臂，看了一眼无人机，拉着覃文静准备离开。
As the square activities calmed down, looking back at the direction the police drone came from, there were indeed firelight and noisy sounds. Li Haojun pulled Qin Wenjing's hand and said to her with a smile,
随着广场活动的平息，回头看警用无人机飞来的方向，确实有火光和嘈杂的声音。李皓珺拉了拉覃文静的手，笑着对她说，
"We need to start jogging,"
"我们需要小步跑起来，"